A Though: Time for Sorting

One thing no matter how hard I try to understand is evil. I am talking the Hitler type of evil. I don’t know if its my path in life or how and where I was raised but I just don’t understand it. I guess some people do just like to watch the world burn. For whatever reason that flips their switch. One thing that I do understand though is that evil doesn’t just show up on your door step one day and say, “Hey why don’t you try me out and have some fun.” It seeps in slowly like a water running over rock a small trickle over time becomes something as large and massive as the Grand Canyon. Each time evil passes through it just takes away a little more of the good in us and creates a cavern that craves to be filled. Unfortunately the things that try to fill it don’t and so more is sought. Its the, “Hey its been a tough week I am going to try something new. I deserve it I worked really really hard this week and I want to feel good.” So you try just a little bit. Whatever your “vice” may be, drugs, sex, alcohol or pornography you try just a little bit. Then next week its,”hey last week that was a fun way to end a hard week, “I’ll try that again”. Then slowly it becomes a crutch and instead of after a bad week its a bad couple of days, or one bad day, then a couple of hours. For some it can be so bad that some may dismiss other morals in life to attain their new vice and thats when things really get rolling. God gave us free will we don’t have to love him. We don’t even have to acknowledge he exists, but it is his home that he made in which we live. We don’t play by his rules then we don’t get to rise into heaven. I know that in a world that tries to preach that “nothing is wrong” or “its all your own point of view” the idea of right and wrong gets blurred. There is true right and wrong. I don’t mean to offend anyone but its a fact. God loves you and he wants to spend time with you, but at the end of the day if he must he will lock you out of the house. I hear stories of parents at their wits end trying to help their children that have chosen the wrong paths. Its so heartbreaking, again and again they try but for some they can’t get through no matter what help they try to employ and so they have to let them go before it ruins the entire family. The same is with God he hopes and loves till the very last day. He patiently waits at the window waiting for you to walk up the sidewalk and knock on the door asking for forgiveness so he can let you in. He wants you there. No matter what you have done he will forgive you. He loves you that much but you have to be willing to let him into your life. He won’t do it for you. He won’t make you. He loves you enough to give you the freedom to make your own choice. All you have to do is pray and ask for him to come into your life. Take some time to get to know him, pray and read the teachings of Jesus in the Bible. Most importantly go to Church. Nothing is more helpful trying something new than surrounding yourself with a team of people with the same goal. God is waiting cause he loves you.

Matthew 13:47-53

47"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a net which was thrown into the sea and gathered fish of every kind; 48when it was full, men drew it ashore and sat down and sorted the good into vessels but threw away the bad. 49So it will be at the close of the age. The angels will come out and separate the evil from the righteous, 50and throw them into the furnace of fire; there men will weep and gnash their teeth. 51"Have you understood all this?" They said to him, "Yes." 52And he said to them, "Therefore every scribe who has been trained for the kingdom of heaven is like a householder who brings out of his treasure what is new and what is old." 53And when Jesus had finished these parables, he went away from there,

A Thought: The Hidden Treasure

When I was a child I was REALLY into radio controlled cars. I wanted to collect them, race them and build them. It was really meaningful for me to be such a young age, be able to build something and then watch it go. The first one that my father got me was good but all the fun was taken out of it cause it was already put together and you couldn’t modify it at all. I worked and worked and saved up the money and bought my first one that I would have to build on my own. Also being a child I didn’t have a good sense of what was important. After several days of coming home finding me not having my chores done my father took away that car. He had it built by someone else and then it sat, for me to see everyday. After years and years I finally got that car and just recently I got it running. That first time around the yard I felt like I was 10 yrs old again. The joy and glee I felt was something special. As I have gotten older I have not only learned the importance of getting work done on time but also what is really important in life. I am very thankful that I have God in my life. He is there at every turn. When things are good, bad and in between he is there. He gave the most amazing gift ever when he sent his son down to earth. The lessons on how to love have changed my life. I feel whole and my life is much better off. I have learned how to forgive others and myself. The baggage that I used to walk around with is no longer there. I can see now the danger signs of bad decisions coming down the road. Do I always make the right ones? No, I am human and I am flawed and I have learned to admit my mistakes and ask for forgiveness from people I hurt and God. I now have the tools to teach my children so that hopefully they don’t make the same mistakes that I have. If they do, then they will know that they are not alone either. The gifts that God has given me are priceless and they are free. I think about my life before and what I had in comparison to now. I am so very grateful, I would have done anything to get where I am now. All I had to do though was to stop, pray, read, meditate and then repeat. I didn’t have to work and toil. I didn’t have to save up a ton of money. I would have done either to receive the peace and happiness that I now have, but I didn’t have to God already loved me and wanted to help me. He is waiting for you to, all you have to do is talk to him and ask him to come into your life. Read the stories of Jesus and his teachings, put them into practice and feel your life slowly change for the better. Its your choice, you can do whatever you want. This is what I chose and it is wonderful.

Matthew 13:44-46

44"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up; then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field. 45"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls, 46who, on finding one pearl of great value, went and sold all that he had and bought it. 

A Thought: Living in a Miracle

It seems that the world doesn’t believe much in miracles anymore. Some have given up or dismissed the idea that the earth, all on it and all surrounding it was made with purpose. With so many “facts” and notions of how the world works and what it is the mystery of the gift seems to get lost in the shuffle. I look at the world and I see how everything has its place. Plants give us oxygen to breath and we give them carbon dioxide to breath. Birds live in the trees and eat insects to keep population down. The insects are here to work on breaking down the “garbage” so that it can be recycled back into the earth. Everything has its purpose. Each time I think that I have found something that doesn’t give back I study and, yep, it has its place. Humans at the top of the food chain, or rather out of it command this wonderful gift called earth. A place to live and therefore it is our job to take care of it. I maybe a hokey ignoramus but I find a miracle in this. I know that it is easy to read the Bible and all the miracles that it speaks of and wonder, “Why doesn’t anything like that happen now?” Fact of them matter it does, you just have to look for it. Part of the problem is that people don’t really believe in miracles anymore so we don’t call them for what they are when we see them. I believe in them and have seen them many times. I believe and I have faith in God and the world around me. I love and try to understand and learn. I study the lessons of Jesus. I don’t always understand why God my father does things the way he does but I have faith in his ways. My sons don’t understand why I don’t want them to play video games 24/7 but there is purpose to it. I know that asking God for miracles could be a bit trying on him. Have you ever had someone ask you to prove that you love them. I have, I did, but it wasn’t enough. They kept asking and asking for me to prove it. I don’t know if it was the proof that they wanted or the acts I completed for my proof that they wanted. I would imagine God feels like that sometimes. He has already done so much. I look out my window and walk through my world and I feel so grateful. What does God want in return? Love, appreciation and worship is what he wants in return. Love him and everything else he made. Show appreciation and take care of what he has given us and worship him to show thanks for all he has done. For me faith is the corner stone for all of this and I know that God will take care of me in good times and bad.

John 11:19-27

19and many of the Jews had come to Martha and Mary to console them concerning their brother. 20When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went and met him, while Mary sat in the house. 21Martha said to Jesus, "Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. 22And even now I know that whatever you ask from God, God will give you." 23Jesus said to her, "Your brother will rise again." 24Martha said to him, "I know that he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day." 25Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, 26and whoever lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?" 27She said to him, "Yes, Lord; I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, he who is coming into the world."

A Thought: “Spreading the Love”

I really like smiles though sometimes it is hard to smile. What a smile can sew and then reap is quite amazing. Have you ever tried just looking random people in the eye and smiling like you just ate the best meal of your life. Its funny to watch the other persons face but usually the corners of their mouth begin to roll up and start to make a smile themselves. In a world with so many distractions and seemingly so little time to get everything done in it still amazes me how a smile can change a room. They can be reassuring, welcoming and help spread love it can also be rather viral. Smiling at one person can brighten someones day for the better and they in turn have the ability to pass it on. That is how I feel about God’s love and gifts. If I share them I begin to see them grow and multiply. Am I someone special? No, I am just as ordinary as anyone else. Anyone can help make this world a better place. Anyone can smile, and just that act alone can do so much. You don’t even have to speak a word which works well for me because so often I find myself without words around others. I usually just prefer to listen. I encourage you to try this as well, to try and help bring some happiness into the world. In my opinion its the first step in trying to make the world a better place. God merely wants us to love him and to love everyone else on the planet as we love ourselves. Is that always easy? No, but if we learn from Jesus’s teachings we can find out how to love better. 

Matthew 13:31-35

31Another parable he put before them, saying, "The kingdom of heaven is like a grain of mustard seed which a man took and sowed in his field; 32it is the smallest of all seeds, but when it has grown it is the greatest of shrubs and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and make nests in its branches." 33He told them another parable. "The kingdom of heaven is like leaven which a woman took and hid in three measures of flour, till it was all leavened." 34All this Jesus said to the crowds in parables; indeed he said nothing to them without a parable. 35This was to fulfil what was spoken by the prophet: "I will open my mouth in parables, I will utter what has been hidden since the foundation of the world."

A Poem: "Something Fades"

"Something Fades"

My love swells and rolls out my eyes 

Pooling on the ground you walk through it

The trail you leave I follow

The further you go the less that's left behind

Your footprints fade the farther you walk

What are you chasing? 

Perhaps the sun thing undone

Alone in the night I am cold

As dawn rises so do you over the horizon

Like a wind you blow the leaves of tasks blow down the road

Over cracks and potholes they roll

A lonely bird takes notice, chirps twice then soars to the sky

The sun arches through the sky

With its warmth so does yesterday's tracks fade

Onward the wind blows

Onward the leaves flow

And again tracks made fade to nothing 

A Thought: Waiting

Last night we were running about town and once again my wonderful children got me and my wife to get them some ice-cream. They are such good negotiators, but they were having a hard time waiting to get it. “When are we getting the ice-cream? Is this the last stop?” When you know that a good thing is coming it can be hard to wait. I would imagine that the people of the Old Testament were feeling that way. They were told that a savior, a great king was coming, and they waited and waited and waited. Its hard to understand God sometimes just like I am sure that it is hard for my children to understand why they had to wait for ice-cream. For them it was simple, they were in a car that could get to the ice-cream place and they wanted it so why not go from point A to point B and get it done. They didn’t understand that Mommy and Daddy had things to get done along the way that were just as important. Whenever I get frustrated cause my requests from God go unanswered I think of my children and the lessons that I try and teach them about waiting. Perhaps God has somethings that he wants me to get done on the way to getting what I want that are more important. Perhaps what I am asking for isn’t good for me at all. This is where patience, prayer and reflection come in. The world is a tricky place as they say, “Be careful what you wish for.” As frustrated as I get sometimes I do feel lucky to be where I am and who I am. I am glad that I came after Jesus. I would have loved to have met him personally but I am glad that I have the benefit of his teachings so readily available. I think about how my life would be without knowing how to love. I remember the days of wanting everything to be fair and if I was wronged then revenge was in order and justified. Problem was it only created more strife and more pain. Resolution was rarely found. Peace was so hard to attain if ever at all. Once I learned to love and with that forgiveness and repentance to others and God I found a much more peaceful life. I am by no means perfect or better than anyone else but I am thankful that I have a discipline to follow that teaches me how to find and create peace. I encourage you to do the same. Take some time and open your eyes to Jesus’s teachings. Listen to what he has to say. Even try and put it into practice. If you have questions, ask, pray and reach out to other Christians (going to Church helps). Know though that God loves you and sent his son with the lessons of a lifetime.

Matthew 13:16-17

16But blessed are your eyes, for they see, and your ears, for they hear. 17Truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it.

A Thought: “Knowing My Place”

I was trying to teach my son the yesterday how to ride his bike and he was getting very upset. Not upset sad cause he was having trouble but he was MAD! He wanted to be able to sit on the seat of the bike and put his feet on the pedals and have the bike sit there for him (without training wheels) till he was ready to pedal and not fall over. I tried to explain to him that it doesn’t work like that. I knelt beside him and calmed him down and explained to him how he had to approach riding a bicycle. He didn’t understand at first but once he started following my directions he started to get the hang of it. He still has a way to go but he will get there. I would run along his side holding my arms out and guiding him as little as possible so that he could do it on his own. That’s kinda how I see God. He loves us, he doesn’t want us to fall or get hurt but he wants us to be able to live on our own. He sent Jesus to teach us how to live and to help stay clear of harm and he sends us the Holy Spirit to guide us in times of need. He is like a loving father, he knows that sometimes we have to skin a knee to learn a lesson. I am sure that it hurts him as much as it hurts me to see my son fall but its the only way he will learn. I could be selfish and devote my free time to hobbies or watching TV but I instead have chosen a live of serving. I serve my family, friends and everyone else I meet. I love like Jesus taught. I love my “neighbors” like I love myself, and to love is to serve. 

Matthew 20:20-28

20Then the mother of the sons of Zeb'edee came up to him, with her sons, and kneeling before him she asked him for something. 21And he said to her, "What do you want?" She said to him, "Command that these two sons of mine may sit, one at your right hand and one at your left, in your kingdom." 22But Jesus answered, "You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I am to drink?" They said to him, "We are able." 23He said to them, "You will drink my cup, but to sit at my right hand and at my left is not mine to grant, but it is for those for whom it has been prepared by my Father." 24And when the ten heard it, they were indignant at the two brothers. 25But Jesus called them to him and said, "You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great men exercise authority over them. 26It shall not be so among you; but whoever would be great among you must be your servant, 27and whoever would be first among you must be your slave; 28even as the Son of man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many."

A Thought: “Learning to Learn”

A Thought: “Learning to Learn”

I used to get all upset when I was little cause my father would have me do something, a chore around the house, and I wouldn’t want to do it. Being the typical not-very-sneaky and lazy child I would ask questions and try and get him to do it for me. He realized this and would answer my questions with questions until I got frustrated and figured out how to do it myself. 

That’s kinda how God is. He doesn’t like lazy. He wants you to want it. He wants you to work for it because he knows that if he just gives you whatever you want it life if will mean nothing. You need to earn knowledge and understanding for it to really mean something to you. 

I am now the father of 4 and I find myself doing the same things that my father and mother once did. I have a wonderful son that I have do chores and he will ask me, “How do I do this?” I will tell him and he will redirect with a question trying to get me to “show” him how to do his chores in a ploy to get me to do it for him. Its hard cause I want him to be happy. I want him to have fun, but I know that if I just do everything for him in life that when I am gone he will have no one to take care of him. The thing that makes me the most happy is seeing that my children learn to take care of themselves and live a righteous life. I know that its not easy but when they learn the value their eyes light up with happiness and they feel and abundance of self worth. 

God wants us to learn his ways and to love him and to love others. Yeah there are 10 commandments but basically it all comes down to loving. Love God, cause he loves you and made you. Love yourself because you are something special and have worth, and love everyone else you meet even if they are hard to love. God knows that if we can learn to fill the world with love that we can overcome any obstacle. So just like my father I may get frustrated and not understand things sometimes I know that if I pray and talk to God and read Jesus’s teachings I will find the answers to my problems. And please know that God doesn’t want us to be alone. We are here to love one another and to help one another. Thats part of the reason why we are to goto Church. Yes, Church is the place where we convene to love and worship God, but its also a community of like minded people that can help us in times of need. I highly suggest going to Church. I know that it can be difficult going somewhere you don’t know anyone, but its so worth it. Feel free to even ask one of us “Jesus freaks” you see around from time to time. You might catch us off guard but if you ask us where is a good place to go to church we usually have some ideas. 

But I do encourage you to goto Church somewhere, read the Bible 10 -15 minutes a day and to pray. All these things may seem weird starting out, but once you get started it gets easier and easier. Its kinda like working out. Reading the Bible I would suggest starting in the New Testament. Its the easiest to digest and there is a lot of good stuff to learn there. When you are ready to go deeper you can dive into the Old Testament and learn about where everything came from. Praying, just sit down and talk to God. That’s it, tell him what you are feeling what you are happy about and thankful for and what you are worried about. God will be happy to hear from you. 

Matthew 13:10-17

10Then the disciples came and said to him, "Why do you speak to them in parables?" 11And he answered them, "To you it has been given to know the secrets of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given. 12For to him who has will more be given, and he will have abundance; but from him who has not, even what he has will be taken away. 13This is why I speak to them in parables, because seeing they do not see, and hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand. 14With them indeed is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah which says: `You shall indeed hear but never understand, and you shall indeed see but never perceive. 15For this people's heart has grown dull, and their ears are heavy of hearing, and their eyes they have closed, lest they should perceive with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and understand with their heart, and turn for me to heal them.' 16But blessed are your eyes, for they see, and your ears, for they hear. 17Truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it.

A Poem: Come Home

“Come Home”

Though I try to hold on a little longer

 I see you slowly slip away

Was a day when I was your everything

Now you just think I’m made of clay

Holding strong I hold my breath to see if you need

As you fall my heart breaks a thousand times

You stand up so strong-willed you keep walking

All alone I just smile proud in my tears

Come on home if you ever get too tired

Come on home if you ever need to mend

Come on home I will always be here waiting

Come on home my arms are open till the end

One day I’ll be too fragile to run a mile

One day I’ll be too weak to lift a hundred pounds

Nothing though can stop my love for you

And I never know any end for you 

So if you ever need a piece of time

If you ever need a little piece of mind

Know that I am always here

For my heart is always yours anytime

A Thought: Getting Pulled On

I could not believe being surrounded by people all the time. I see famous people getting crowded with people swarming them and taking pictures. I hear reports on the news from time to time about famous people getting grabbed at and pulled on. I could imagine having someone pulling on my clothes as I walked down the street, but I guess that is how things go. People seem to have a hole inside them and try and fill it to feel whole. Unfortunately some fill it with the wrong things. Hate, money, lust, drugs and or alcohol are a few of the things that people fill their life with. I have chosen to fill my life with love. Its not always easy for me to do sometimes my “flesh” my “body” wants to do other things but they are just an empty vessel that never seems to satisfy. Money, never enough, sex and alcohol the same. Insanity is described as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Filling that hole with the wrong thing day in and day out seems like insanity to me because it never gets filled with those things. 

So even though he traveled everywhere by foot with no shield from the weather Jesus took the time to teach the lesson of love because he was love. All God really wants is for us to love him instead of all other “gods” and to love each other and we love ourselves. Some will listen and spread this “love” to others. For others love will be quickly taken away or lost altogether for a lack of faith and/or persuasion. Though we may make mistakes God still loves us and welcomes us to him. 

Matthew 13:1-9

1That same day Jesus went out of the house and sat beside the sea. 2And great crowds gathered about him, so that he got into a boat and sat there; and the whole crowd stood on the beach. 3And he told them many things in parables, saying: "A sower went out to sow. 4And as he sowed, some seeds fell along the path, and the birds came and devoured them. 5Other seeds fell on rocky ground, where they had not much soil, and immediately they sprang up, since they had no depth of soil, 6but when the sun rose they were scorched; and since they had no root they withered away. 7Other seeds fell upon thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked them. 8Other seeds fell on good soil and brought forth grain, some a hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty. 9He who has ears, let him hear." 

A Thought: Having Faith

Imagine a dear friend passing a way. You are struck with a great sense of mourning and when you go to pay your respects it appears that someone has stolen their body. In this day and age where we hear about all sorts of sick things in the world I am sure our minds would be filled with horrible things that might be happening to our passed friend. I always read this passage and think about the horror that would enter my mind if I was one of the early arrivals and saw Jesus gone. 

Here is someone that taught me about love, feed me whom I saw heal the sick and take care of those in need, someone that was a true light in the world. I saw him rise to fame, and then because he was not what everyone wanted was beaten, spit on, called names, mocked, then nailed to a cross and left for dead only to be finished off by being stabbed in the side. 

Before Jesus left he spoke three times about rising from the dead. Though his followers didn’t understand at the time his words came true. I guess this goes to speak to how hard it can be to have faith. I am human and I am flawed. I am not a God but I have been given free will. I can do whatever I want. That was a gift God gave to me. He made this wonderful world and gave me rules, but I am not a programmed robot. God lets me choose, to do his will or mine. I can steal, lie, get drunk or high and even have rampant adulterous sex as much as I want, or I can love. I can love God with all my mind, body and soul and love everyone I meet the way I would want to be loved. I have traveled both roads and I will say that my life is more full and more happy following Jesus’s teachings. 

It can be hard at times when my “flesh” just wants to “have fun” and fulfill all my desires. Luckily I know that road and I know how empty and lonely and sick it feels. I do my best to teach my children of these things so that hopefully they have a happy life and fill it with good things and learn from my mistakes. I make mistakes even to this day and when I do I ask forgiveness. I get on my knees and say that I am sorry honestly from my heart. Its not an exercise just to get out of trouble. I truly love God just like my family and friends, and I feel bad when I let God down just like I do when I let my friends and family down. I may not always understand the world and how God gets things done, but I have learned by practicing what Jesus taught that his way is right and true, so I have faith. Its hard but it works for me.

John 20:1-2, 11-18

1Now on the first day of the week Mary Mag'dalene came to the tomb early, while it was still dark, and saw that the stone had been taken away from the tomb. 2So she ran, and went to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one whom Jesus loved, and said to them, "They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him." 11But Mary stood weeping outside the tomb, and as she wept she stooped to look into the tomb; 12and she saw two angels in white, sitting where the body of Jesus had lain, one at the head and one at the feet. 13They said to her, "Woman, why are you weeping?" She said to them, "Because they have taken away my Lord, and I do not know where they have laid him." 14Saying this, she turned round and saw Jesus standing, but she did not know that it was Jesus. 15Jesus said to her, "Woman, why are you weeping? Whom do you seek?" Supposing him to be the gardener, she said to him, "Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have laid him, and I will take him away." 16Jesus said to her, "Mary." She turned and said to him in Hebrew, "Rab-bo'ni!" (which means Teacher). 17Jesus said to her, "Do not hold me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father; but go to my brethren and say to them, I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God." 18Mary Mag'dalene went and said to the disciples, "I have seen the Lord"; and she told them that he had said these things to her.

A Thought: On A Journey

“On a Journey”

I laugh at myself sometimes in this world with the internet and instant access to people all over the world and information that I feel afraid sometime to talk to others. I guess it might be because of a life filled with rejection, and I negatively feel that is a reflection on me and my worth. We are all worthy and all beautiful. I know that these are words that have come out of many an after school special but it is true and needs to be repeated from time to time. I could not imagine walking out the door with nothing. Just walking down the road speaking to whomever I met about my love for God and what it means to love, forgive and repent. I hear so many stories that have the words, “Oh, yeah and then they knocked on my door and tried to talk to me about God stuff. Why can’t they just stay home?” I can’t imagine going on said journey with no money, food or even a change of clothes, but that’s what the disciples did. They just went out there and met, talked and loved people they didn’t know. Anymore when I talk about God and Jesus’s teachings a great peace comes over me. Do people want to hear what I have to say? Probably not all the time and I have gotten some rather strange looks, but I don’t really care. I think people though trying at times are wonderful. I see uniqueness in everyone I meet. Do I agree with everyone? No, but I still love and respect them. Even the ones that call me names to my face or disappear off the face of the planet when they find out I am one of those “God Freaks”!  I try very hard to not offend anyone but I do stand and speak for what I believe in. Its not always easy but I feel I have received a great gift. I have a great peace inside of me. Studying Jesus and his teachings has been a real eye opener for me. To learn how to love everyone as they are has been challenging and very rewarding. I feel wonderful that God loves me know and also when I act like an idiot. I will scream it at the top of my lungs. 

I AM NOT PERFECT, I MESS UP A LOT AND I MAKE MISTAKES ALL THE TIME. 

I just ask for forgiveness and try to move on learn and become a better person each and everyday. So, in a way I am on a journey though mine is a lot more comfortable than the disciples but I give when I can to those in need. I share what I know and love as much as I possibly can to try and make this world a better place. One day I will get where I am going and I just hope that when I turn around and look back I see a trail of good deeds behind me, not for my sake though, but for everyone else’s. I have been taught to share the knowledge of the wonderful gift I have received and I try every day.

Luke 9:1-6

1And he called the twelve together and gave them power and authority over all demons and to cure diseases, 2and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal. 3And he said to them, "Take nothing for your journey, no staff, nor bag, nor bread, nor money; and do not have two tunics. 4And whatever house you enter, stay there, and from there depart. 5And wherever they do not receive you, when you leave that town shake off the dust from your feet as a testimony against them." 6And they departed and went through the villages, preaching the gospel and healing everywhere.

A Poem: Inside My Heart

"Inside My Heart"

Hold me tight 

I won't push back

Your whisper in my ear

Your everything is I need 

Holding off the lust

Waiting for your call

Everything I have

Is yours after all

My arms are open

I am falling fast 

I hope you are around 

To hold too sweet for telling

All my fingers open 

Waiting for you touch

Sliding down a slippery slope

My love needs no anchor

My eyes are now wide open

It's oh so plain to see

Of all the things in everything

Your all is just for me 

A Poem: When Is It?

"When Is It?"

Here we sit 

Holding in the knowing 

How to move mountains. 

How to get the water flowing

Over all the years now

Over all the hate 

Over all the love 

To make what we can make

Still some seem to cry

Each and every day

Over all of the hunger

Over all of the pain 

Over all the hatred

That never seems to fade

Who's looking for the answer?

Does anyone seem to care?

Is the release far from starting?

Or has it started and no one is aware?