A Poem: Clouds

"Clouds

I sit here and I wonder 

My mind in the grey

Eyes on the clouds

Is that where dreams are held?

Drifting as they do

Are the lost on on a mission?

So many clouds I see down here

Passing the sun

Some rain the tears of pain

Others just rumble about

Trying to hold them

Trying to hug

Trying to help them rise once again

In the sky where clouds belong

My feet so heavy 

Like anchors of a ship

Grounded to the rock

Its weight heavy and sound

I do not wish to fly

Tempted by days past by

I wonder I pause then forward

Screaming the pain in my throat rips

Piercing tears into my own ears

Clouds keep falling off the cliff

Over the edge falling into the pit

Am I not worthy?

Is my love to little for some time?

Am I a lonely grain of sand on the beach?

Looking at the masses 

They all look just like me

I do not want to fly

Nor do I want to leave

Can I just be me?

The inside of me 

What I see

Or do I need to learn to fly? 

Like the clouds

Mystery is the answer

So I wait

So I hope

So I pray

Again