A Poem: "Lost In Pain"

"Lost In Pain"

Blood pulses in my eyes

A sickness rises from my gut

Pain pain pain I'm soaked

My fingers burn

My head's a fire

All in my path

Death death death lays before me

Choke I try

Cut I try

Push push push it away

I am dying

The inside out

I beg beg beg

I try to understand

I have hope

I have love

Down down down I push

Flush away the pain I try

Flush away the hate I try

Try try try to understand

Cry I would but for the pain

Hug I would but for the pain

On the ledge 

At the edge

Looking 

Down down down at the burn

Down down down at the hate

Down down down at the pain

Up I look 

Up I beg

On my knees again

Waiting for the sun

Still I hope

Just for relief

Just a second

Just a thought 

For a moment

To be me again